Clare's secret diary

Dear Diary,


What to do? I'm in misery. Still, Eli is so haute...yet cold. Still. I thought we were over this. I thought..I thought he cared about me. I did.


I'm a crazy fool for him. But he's just so...beautiful.


Can I say that about him? I want him so bad. Its so hard not to want to be with him. I am so in lust with him. I want it to be love. I do. 


What can I do to make it true? I need him. I want him. He's so everything to me. Is that why he's acting this way?


God, please don't be mad at me.


Clare